Where is your trust?

I am learning a very valuable lesson right now. It is extremly painful, but also very necessary. Here it is: The reason why you don’t have all the things you want, when you want them, is because you’ll put your trust in them, and not in God. But if you continually trust God, he will give you all that you truly need. There is a great Proverb that says, Gid don’t make me too poor or too rich. Too poor so that I will become hard and forget you or too rich and forget about you with all my comfort. I think these two concepts are extremly important. Some people will question if God loves us like a good father why we don’t have all the things that we want. But like a good earthly parent, we must put limits on our children so they will not become spoiled and think they deserve it all. Many people make the tragic decision of worshipping the created things and not the creator. This is absolutly pervasive between cultures and is probably the most difficult and most engrained part of American culture. I know this very well, I want a lot of things and I continually have to check my heart whether this is something God would want me to have or if I’m acting purely from my flesh. But not getting what we want can also apply to a mate, a job, a group of friends, a social network, or even good things we think we should have. The key to me is to trust God and his timing for every good and perfect gift. This is extremely difficult and I am aboslutly dreadful at it. If I were good, I wouldn’t be so focused on finding a girlfriend, which may or may not be what God wants for me. When we trust in something, we count it almost as a given. I don’t really think about if my computer chair is going to hold me when I sit down, I trust it. I have to learn to apply that dame principle to God when I don’t have something and instead of sulking that I don’t have it, need to work at becoming the kind of person who could actually handle and deal with all that whatever IT I’m going after. The IT for me is a girl and a career right now, and I’m not where I wish I was with either of them. But God in his infinite wisdom and knowledge knows my better than I know myself. And if I can learn to rely on that I will be much better off. A few weeks ago I was walking and I saw this kid running around, jumping, and generally being the most joyful child I’ve ever seen. God spoke to my heart and asked me a very profound question, “Why is that child so joyful?” at first I didn’t really have an answer, but I think God told me why. That child completely relied on his parents fir everything. He knew he couldn’t get the things he wanted or needed by himself and he completely trusted his parents, and because of that, he had utter joy. That is to say, when I trust God more, my joy is bound to increase. God already holds everything together, so why not trust him with everything? This is inevitably more difficult than it sounds, but is something I have to work on. Because my attitude, even at this very second is not where it should be. I’m far too easily shaken and frustrated, far too often I lack discipline, and far too often I get really angry at little stuff. All of that is a lack of trust. God help me. I am so weak and so full of doubt. And I have no idea what to do.